It's time out for the same old stuff. I'm not a teenager anymore. I need more than just someone to be physical with. As a matter of fact, I don't even want to be physical with anyone. My life has changed, my priorities have changed, heck, I'm not the person I used to be. With God's help, I have realized that I am a prize package. I don't have to give myself to anyone to be loved or to feel loved.
I am beautiful. It took me years to be able to say that about myself. I can honestly look in the mirror and see more than what I used to. I used to see someone with flaws. I could name them one by one. I had them categorized from best to worst. When I added up all the flaws, they equalled UGLY. I didn't look like all the other girls. I wasn't pretty. I was smart, but not pretty. Not anymore. I had to get over myself. I had to get over the pain that I had gone through over the years. The harsh words that were said to me. The lies that were told. You never know how things are going to affect you until you are affected.
Before I can love anyone, I have to love myself. Yes, I admit that I am not 100% "fixed", but let me tell you, I'm very close. To be able to look at myself and see beauty, is something that I have never been able to do before.
I don't need a man to validate me. I don't have to give myself to anyone to be loved. I don't have to dress like a lady of the night to be recognized. My very presence commands attention. Why, because I have changed my mind about who I am. My thoughts about myself saturate my surroundings. Those around me can feel my positivity, which in turn causes them to take a look. Men not only see me as beautiful, but they see me as confident and secure.
I am beautiful.
Excerpt from an upcoming book.
